Chapter 2 You Are Not An Accident

I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born. Isaiah 44:2

I think I would like to answer the question at the end of the chapter in this blog:
Knowing that God uniquely created me, what areas of my personality, background, and physical appearance am I struggling to accept?

Wow, this is a heavy question for me...
Personality- I have struggled with the characterstics that people say I have that are very similiar to my mothers. Her stubborness and pride, her close-minded and judgemental ways of thinking are just some of the traits I fear. I do not want to be like my mother in those ways because she has proven to be very hurtful and I dont ever want to hurt the people I love.
Background-I am very proud of my background on both sides. I do however wish that some of my family members werent the way they are. I know we all have those disfunctional members, but some of the issues that get swept under the rug are very hard to accept especially when the pile of dirt keeps getting bigger.
Physical Appearance-I was raised to always be concerned and aware of my appearance. I think this stems from my mothers unhappiness with herself and the respect we should have when represent the family in public. For the longest time, my self esteem and my self confidence was low. I can honestly say I dont think there has ever been a time in my life where I was happy with my physical appearance. I've felt not pretty enough or thin enough. I have always struggled with believing I am beautiful and being happy with the way God made me. But I also think that going through these struggles it has made me the person I am today. They continue to help me be conscience of with the way I treat people and myself hopefully it is according to God's will or purpose.